My life as a teenage baby

July 17th

well diary, today was actually pretty good. i got there, and no one made fun of me..
I spent most of the day, hanging out with Melvin and teether, tommy was in the all French side of the day care.
you know, where they only speak French all the time in order to teach it to the kids quicker?
Yeah, sounds weird to me too.
well anyway. i spent the morning, painting pictures, and myself with Melvin, and she was giggling as i got myself covered in pink paint.
A quick bath later, much to the caretakers amusement and i was a clean baby...er...girl..
then both me and teether were put in high chairs for lunch...mmm...hotdogs and fries... Melvin sat like a big girl...i threw a bit of a fit i'll admit...but when they tried me in a big girl chair...i er...fell out and landed on my padded bum.
then it was time for a nap among the younger kids.
Melvin kissed both mine and teether foreheads and then walked off with the big kids, as i was tucked into a sleeping mat.
i threw a semi fit...-blush- untill...well...Mommy must of dropped him off with the caretakers, because they produced comander bun bun and i squealed as i huggled him and was soon asleep.
I woke up to teether shaking me and babbling in baby talk, and then he STOLE commander bun bun from me and chewed off his ear!
I was..well...upset.
well, considering the fit i threw, i was more than upset. but...that was my favorite bunny and he ruined it!
Melvin was the only one to calm me in the end, first she scolded teether, and then she used her powers to fix bun bun. my bunny is still close to me, and while i want to sleep with him tomorrow at day care, i dun know if i wanna risk him again.

July 18

Today, after a uneventful day at day-care, mommy picked me and told me we had a special trip to make.
on our way over to wherever this place was, she brought me a scoop of vanilla ice cream and we sat in the park and ate it first.
of course, you most likely don't know the full scene do you diary? well, since i like writing, I'll describe it .
I was in my diapers of course, and a plain white top. i had a paci tied round my neck as i sat in a extra large stroller mommy had made for me. i was sat up as Mommy slowly spooned me the ice cream, and god did it taste good.
after i was done, she wiped my mouth clean and then we went on.
as we got closer to this special place, i began to realize where we were.
see, awhile back Zatanna had retired from the Justice League and wanted to live quietly in our city.
the main rumors was that she was knocked up with anther hero's kid.
As it turns out, she was the mother of the child who had been bugging me before..and the kids name was Zack.
as we came to her door, her and Zack were waiting for us...maybe it seems weird, but I'll semi flash back for you diary.
"Hello there, I'm so glad you got my message." Zatanna said with a smile.
instead of her usual wear, she was simply in a pair of blue sweats and a long blue t-shirt.
Zack, was in a pair of jean shorts and a white muscle shirt.
he stuck his touge out as we came up.
"It's my pleasure. i understand that you wished to say sorry for your sons behavior toward my sweet raven." Starfire smiled.
"Well when i heard what he had done, I felt terrible for you. I know how hard it can be."she knelt down and patted my head.
"And i wanted to say sorry to you rae rae. i now how much it must of sucked..Zack...isn't there something you would like to say to her?"
He walked forward, blushing a bit before looking at me shyly.
"I'm...Sorry for making fun of you..." He said, looking at the ground.
I smiled, and nodded to him.
"It's s'ok..."
"Would he be able to watch her for awhile. she's not all the way like a true baby.." Starfire said as she eased me out of the stroller and stood me shaky on my feet.
I was able to walk a few steps, before plopping on my bum, and Zack giggled slightly as Zatanna lightly hushed him.
"sorry mommy.." he said.
"It's s'ok.." I said, crawling over. "Mes realized..that sometimes...i look foolish...while ex-team teasing is no funs...I've learned to accept that i will alway amuse someone..." I said.
Mommy looked at me...and she was so...proud...i felt myself blushing. the pride that she had in me, chased away all the bad feelings of going and being looked after by Zack.
"That's my girl..." she whispered and then hugged me tightly.
Zack led me into the house and toward his room on the face floor. it had the usual 5 year old stuff in it, dinosaurs etc.
"So...you used to be a magic user like mommy?" He asked me.
I nodded my head.
"I'm a half demon from anther dimension. my real daddy was a demon named Trigon who tricked my human mommy into um.." I stopped, realizing some parts of the story would have to be altered.
"he what?" Zack asked.
"He tricked her into asking the stock for baby.." i said blushing.
Zack giggled at me.
"whats so funny?" i asked.
"You mean you still belive in the stork?"
I blushed and raised a eyebrow, surprised that a five year old seemed to know the facts of life.
we mostly talked back and forth, and he seemed to enjoy my stories of various fights i had been in.
"Dun you miss being a hero?" he asked me.
"well.."
And Diary..here's the odd part.
i didn't..i don't miss being a hero. i was going out there and putting myself on the line everyday. i helped saved countless life's and even fought my daddy off...but...If i was to get my powers back...
I think i would hide it.....

August 1

...Sorry i haven't written in you for so long diary, but i actually lost you for the longest time.
I'll try to get you back up to speed.
Me and Zack are getting along rather well now, and he's been let back into day-care.
Mommy has started her Internet company, selling teen sized diapers etc. for what she calls special cases like me.
none of us have had the heart to tell her that most of her customers are most likely Diaper lovers.
the really...really big news...is...well..
I woke up this morning...an i was floating...
after being powerless for so long...some of my powers are starting to come back. i was able to lift up to 5 pounds with my energy.
I still can't do damaging blasts, and i can only hover slightly.
I guess i should be happy. after all...isn't this what i wanted? my powers back and my life back?
I'm scared of how mommy will take the news. she spent so much time looking after me, and caring for her little one..that when i tell her...I'm scared she'll break..and maybe not love me anymore.
The truth is diary...I love Starfire more than I've ever realized. i want to be with her all the time.
But it isn't that easy.
Starfire may have tons of lesbian porn, but i know how her planet views same sex relationships.
If she was caught, being my girlfriend and not my mother...she could never step foot on tamerain again, on pain of death.
I love her diary...and because i love her so much..I'm...willing to remain a big baby, even as i get stronger, to be with her...i most likely won't be writing in you again...you've been a great listener, and you've helped keep me sane...but from now on, i think I'll try talking to my mommy rather than complain in you. I'll always keep you around..
the mistress of diapers
Rachel 'Raven' Roth

Starfire smiled to herself, and looked over at her sleeping child
the living room was dark save for a single lamp to chase away the bogermen that many little ones feared.
"Oh Raven...my sweet sweet baby.."
How many times had she wanted to ask Raven if she felt their connection. She would never do anything that Raven didn't want, at least when it came to mature subjects.
she set the Diary down and walked over to look at her sleeping beauty.
she had found the book while cleaning up this morning. interestingly enough, it ended about half a year ago.almost a enitre year of them living together, and Raven's body had changed.
her hair had gone long and was lose right now, though it would be put in a ponytail tomorrow morning. she had but on a little bit of weight, enough to almost look like baby fat.
Her finger and toe nails where colored pink and she had her stud in her ear right now, but had a whole array of cute earrings to chose from.
"All this time...and i didn't even know you had a more human name.." Starfire sighed, stoked her lovers back.
the thing raven had given up, and had endured, just to be with Starfire like this, so that Starfire could still go home.
"Rachel..Rachel please wake up.." Starfire said shaking her softly.
Rachel sat up, blinking her eyes and holding onto the side of her crib, her legs pushed apart by her diaper.
"Mmm, whats up mommy?" she asked sleepily.
"Rachel..I found your diary...and have read it."Starfire said gently.
as soon as her real name was said, Rachel froze up slightly and then sighed.
"A-are you mad at me?" she asked.
"Mad? no...oh no.." Starfire said, blinking back tears.
"You gave up so much just to be with me..Rachel...how could i ever hate you for that?" she said, pulling the girl out of the crib and hugging her tightly.
"I..I Love you...and..this was the only way i could think of to stay with you.." Rachel whispered, sitting on her mommy's lap.
"Yes.. i know. but I'm not going to make you stay like this if you don't want to.Rachel...I love you..love you with my entire being. and if Tamerain can't accept that love can be between to females, then to hell with them. earth is my home now anyways"
Rachel blinked, and then slowly kissed Starfire on the lips.
her life as a teenaged baby may of been coming to a end. but her life as Starfire's equal, and her girlfriend, was starting now.