Perfect

PERFECT

Disclaimer: I don’t own anything, but hope to own something one day.

Chapter Two
Perfect Everyone, Imperfect Me.

Beast Boy Slowly walked toward the titan tower a frown on his face. His normal happy disposition dissolved. There was no one around to fool, no need to ware the masked he put on to keep the others out. Sure they were his friends, but the changeling knew they would never understand him. It wasn’t like they didn’t care they just didn’t notice. They would never see that the smile he wore were fake.

Beast Boy knew very well what the other four teens thought of him. They saw him as a kid. An annoying kid, hell even he knew he was annoying some times. The youngest member knew his team mates never meant to be the way they were and shut him out, and he also knew that it was part his fault. Beast Boy never even saw how alone he was in till he met Terra. Terra had been the only one who truly got him. Her betrayal and sacrifice hurt him more then he would like to admit. That seemed to be the eye opener to how alone he truly was. Sure he knew the others liked him and considered him a friend, and even trusted him. But Beast Boy was still him and they were them.

“Perfect them” Beast Boy said a little bitterly.

They were perfect in every sense of the word especially there leader Robin. Beast Boy was imperfect, but at least he could admit it. It still didn’t make the pain stop. Cy was a mechanical genius and had barons to go with the brains. Raven was so beautiful and her magic never ceased to amaze all those around her. The alien princess Starfire was an amazingly strong and beautiful goddess with a pure heart. Robin was the very definition of the word perfect, someone everyone should strive to be admiral, strong, and handsome. Robin was every thing Beast Boy was not and he knew it all too well.

“Imperfect me” The small green boy sighed.

Beast Boy knew his faults all to well. He wasn’t bright, magical, pure of heart, and he defiantly wasn’t handsome.

“When did the others start to become so great” Beast Boy wondered. And some where in the back of his mind he knew that they were always better then he was, because every one was better then he was in his mind. And that’s when loneliness sneaked in. An imperfect person dose not fit in with the perfect people no matter how much he wanted to or, how much he loved them.

Beast Boy stopped just out side of the titans tower in tears utterly heart broken and lonely. Sloping down to sit on the ground just out side of the door he sobbed. Beast boy reached slowly into the pocket of his suit disparate to stop the pain in his chest he pulled out a blade. Lifting it and slicing in to his arm he felt relief form the pain of being imperfect. He watched the blood trickle down his arm to make beautiful crimson pools on the ground.

“I am so fucked up” The youngest titan thought to him self as he covered the wound so no one would see. Placing the blade back in to his pocket he stood up took a big breath to get his composure and walked into the tower he called his home.

A giggling perfect Star wrapped around her perfect Boyfriend was the sight he saw as he walked in.

“Will you to love birds get a room” Beast Boy heard as Cy joked with the young lovers. Beast Boy walked in unnoticed and stared at the two entwined pair and it sickened him because they were the perfect couple. He plastered the stupidest grin he could possibly muster.

““You two really are the perfect couple” The green boy chimed. And as soon as the words left his lips he was reminded of how lonely he was and for a second he couldn’t hide the pain in his eyes. Slowly he slid his hands behind his back and squeezed the freshly made wound as hard as he could. The pain in his eyes gone and replaced with the fake happiness the physical pain had aloud in.

Beast Boy looked up just in time to see Starfire drag Robin off into the hall leaving a pained Beast Boy and a slightly embarrassed Cyborg.

“There going to be at it again” a rather flustered Cy pointed out.

“Dude too much information” Beast Boy screamed a slight blush tainting his checks.

“Well it’s true” Cy laughed.

Beast Boy just bowed his head shaking it a little walking towards his room muttering something about a bad mental picture.

In the safe sanctuary of his room Beast Boy striped and jumped in to the shower. The water pierced his skin and melted his soar muscles. In truth they haven’t been all that busy lately, but he was still mentally exhausted this in turn made his whole body completely soar. He washed the blood off of his newly made wounds and watched as it made the water pink. Beast Boy Grinned a half hearted sad grin. He briefly wondered what the other teens in the tower would think if they knew what he did to himself.

“They would be disgusted” He sobbed to himself. Beast Boy slide down to the floor; bring his knees to his chest as he cried. The changeling didn’t leave the shower in till the water was freezing his skin. Placing a white towel around his thin waist he entered his room. Beast Boy quickly changed into his pajamas and laid in bed. He was utterly exhausted but still couldn’t sleep. Thinking was dangerous to the young titan because it reminded of him of how pathetic he truly was. So instead he blanked his mind and starred at a single spot in till sleep came to engulf him. Just before sleep claimed he fully he whispered one last single thought as a tear streamed down his check.

“God I hate myself”