The game

Author note: Alternative Universe. Leo's point of view.
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Oh boy here we go again, Raph was shouting at me, I could feel the warmness of his breath just few inches off my face. I don't even remember what I did for making him so angry in the first place, but it seems that it's not important because any little thing I could do, make his temper rear its ugly face. Some feet away from us, Master Splinter was shaking his head, he didn't like the situation the same as I did. Behind him were Mike and Don, looking at us with bored expressions, already too used to our quarrels.

" Michelangelo, Donatello, we will let your brothers continue with this discussion, alone." Splinter said, getting up with the help of his cane, and getting out the tatami. My two little brothers left with him.

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" Look at me when I'm talking to you, dammit!" Raphael shouts at me, grabbing my arm jerking it so I had no choice but to look at him.

" I'm listening you. And quit screaming, it's not necessary to speak so loudly." I answered him, trying to keep my cool to counter his angry mood, making me angry would only make this go worst.

" I'm sick of you telling me what to do!"

...And before I could realize it, he jumped over me, we tumbled to the ground as we fought atop of the mat floor. I don't like fighting with him, but sometimes he doesn't give me any alternative than punching him back. Right after pulling me to the floor with the shell under me, he grabbed my wrists roughly, I tried to get free, but I was in a very uncomfortable position to do anything. I stared into his eyes. His expression was calming down without any sign that make me think he wanted to continue kicking my shell. He breathed deep, and I saw a sweat drop falling from his nose to his mouth, he used his tongue for drying it, looking at me with a really confusing expression and he clenched his teeth, in a way I could see them, I thought he just take a rest and attack me again, but instead of that, he put his lips over mine, roughly. I tried to resist harder, but like earlier it was vain... Raphael, my own brother... was kissing me... I had these odd feelings invade my thinking then, for a moment I was horrified for the idea and I feared one of our brothers or Master Splinter, entering right now and find us in this way, but for my big perplexity, the fear become a nice feeling, then I felt he relaxed his hands and I fought with myself for making me take advantage of that moment, freeing myself and throw him away from me.

" Why did you do that?!" I asked, exalted, passing a hand for my mouth.

Raphael burst in a laugh; I didn't found it so funny though. Then he stared at me with one of those grim smiles of his...

" Did you liked it?" He asked as he sat in a more comfortable and smiled not so widely.

" Why you do it?! Answer me!"

" Because I wanted to." He shrugged. " Now answer Leo. Did you liked it?"

I opened my mouth to tell a firm 'no' but...

He chuckled and for my discomfort, he approached me walking on his knees and hands, just to get in front of me again. He moved his face closer mine, but I put my hands on his shoulders for impeding him doing it again.

" Raph, no. This is wrong... We're brothers!" I wanted to keep from looking at his eyes, but it was hard not to. This was so embarrassing...

" C'mon Leo, you know best just like me we're not blood brothers." He tilted his head.

" And we're both males!" I said looking at him.

" Now you're shouting. Do you want the others to hear us?" He made a gesture with his head, pointing out the entrance of the training room. I covered my mouth with a hand.

" I don't mind we are both guys, but if it bothers you so much..." He moved away and got up, walking toward the corridor that separates our home to the place we were in right now.

I looked at him and I couldn't help but standing up and follow him. It was wrong, it was SO WRONG... but on other side... it was so exciting...

" Wait!" I made him stop walking. He looked at me for the corner of his eye and smiled before closing his eyes and lifted his eyebrows, smiling now widely.

" What do you want?"

He turned and came closer to me. Raph never intimidated me so much before but at this moment... he knew he discovered my weakness and he was going to use it to his advantage, and I was scared as hell. He approached his face again, but I felt unable to kiss him, my own decency was impeding me to do it.

" What's the problem "fearless leader", can't you do it?" He chuckled right before pulling me against the wall and grabbing my wrists again, the idea of having him kissing me after that made me shiver, I closed my eyes. " So that's it, uh? You prefer lie yourself, thinking it's big bad Raphael is doing you the un-honorable things... so you can not feel guilty about yourself..." I opened my eyes finding those impenetrable onyx eyes staring at mine, it was like they could read all my most hidden thoughts... " Well, I'm afraid I'm not the kind of guy for doing such things, even if I look like it..." He freed me and stepped back.

" Raph..."

" You know what I want to hear." He crossed his arms and looked at me with a brow lifted.

I lean my head to the floor, I had to tell it...

" I liked it... And I want you to kiss me again..."

I didn't look at his face, but I knew he was smiling... he was the one in charge now.

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We were still in the corridor. Yes, I liked him dominating me in that way but... How can I tell him without a total embarrassing myself?

" I want this be a secret from everybody." I told him in first term, it has to be essential, I don't know the way the others would react if they knew we were messing like this, and I didn't wanted to risk it.

" Done. I ain't telling a soul and they won't hear this from me. Anything else?"

" No... " I can't tell him, it was superior to me.

" Okay, then my rules. What we do is on equal terms, but I'm still in charge here, and what I say goes, but this ain't going to be like some rape, got it?" I nodded and he continued " We'll play our roles so no one gets suspicious, You play like the leader and command, I of course will argue, but obey anyways." I felt my face heat up some as Raph says " but you'll do whatever I want when I told you."

" But..."

" You want us keep playing this little game? Then we are playing it on my rules or we'll not play at all."

" Alright... but don't abuse... remember we're not living alone..."

" Don't worry about that; this will be between us, when there's nobody but us."

I nodded again, it was a good deal after all... Raph was doing exactly what I wanted... Who was the one in charge then, hm? I avoided smiling at this though.

" Any more rules?" I told him, breathing deeply, thinking about all this and trying to know what Raph had in mind.

" It's enough for me."

And without more preambles, he grabbed and kissed me with desire. This time I made no resistance and kissed him back. His lips were firm, but warm also smooth. He surprised me when his wet tongue caressed my lower lip, making me open my mouth. His taste was only defined as him, was exactly the way he would taste... and I loved it. I give myself up to all the sensations that invaded me a tingling sensation running up and down my legs and spine; it wasn't only the kiss, his hands, were caressing my thighs a little rudely. How can this be so pleasurable? His legs were alternated with mines, unfortunately a little limited for the knee pads...

Leaving the control in Raphael hands made me feel so free for doing whatever I wanted, without the concern of restraining myself, because of Raph ruling the "game". Then the kisses and touches stopped suddenly.

" What's the matter?" I asked almost out of breath.

" Let's go back, I don't want the master coming here for stopping our "fight"." He answered, looking to the corridor. When he looked at me again, his eyes full of lust, it worried me. He wanted to continue it at home? For a side I liked the idea but on another hand... they could catch us... Surely Raph was thinking it could be funny or exciting... but I didn't liked the idea...

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to be continue...